We’ve all heard of confidence, but very few actually have it. We search for confidence in our looks, our jobs, our partners, our friends. It takes work to build ourselves up, especially when it’s so easy to look down on ourselves and whatever we think is wrong with us.

Anxiety can easily hinder our confidence. It can make us sit out on events and say no to invitations. It can make us feel unworthy, alone, and unaccepted.

What if instead of trying so hard to build up a worldly self-confidence, we sought out a heavenly God-confidence?

What is God-confidence and how is it different than self-confidence? Self-confidence is focused on ourselves and what we can achieve, while God-confidence is knowing who God is and what He can achieve.

You can be confident in yourself, but you can also be confident in God, and how He has created us in His image and has given us our own unique gifts that are to be used for His glory. You can have confidence in the fact that He loves you and cares about you. You can fully trust Him. You will build self-confidence when you first seek God-confidence.


Whether it’s your looks, relationship status, work, whatever is hurting your confidence, God can completely turn it around with His truth.

There’s nothing I can do about my anxiety or depression on my own. You have to learn to see yourself how He sees you. Anxiety and all. You are loved.

What else can we be God-confident about? His provisions, His endless love, mercy, and grace. We can be confident that He is in control and that nothing happens without a divine purpose. We can be confident in knowing that He is our true Father who loves us unconditionally more than we can humanly understand. When it seems like no one accepts us, the King of all creation does.

Advice Tip #23: When you know who He is and everything He does, you will only then find who you are. Our true worth is found in God. We will never live up to the world’s expectations. We will never be good enough for the standards of this planet. But to God, we may fall short, but we are still more than enough.

Psalm 139:13-14 (ESV)

13 For you formed my inward parts;
    you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a]
Wonderful are your works;
    my soul knows it very well.

Thanks for reading,



I’ve Been Nominated

Hey, everyone! Just dropping by to share that I’ve been nominated for the 2017 Liebster Awards! I was nominated by Amanda Stout at The Simply Joyful Life. Amanda is a fellow Christian blogger who is also just starting out. I definitely recommend her blog, as she is an amazing writer with many wise words. Check her out here! Thank you so much, Amanda! I’m honored!




The Liebster Award is an internet award given to a new blog/small blog of less than 200 followers each year. It is primarily a way for bloggers to promote each other’s blogs. This award serves as a wonderful way to recognize fellow bloggers, as well as acknowledging all of the effort that goes into creating a blog behind the scenes.

There are several criteria that must be met to win the award including:

  1. You must thank and link back to the blogger that nominated you.
  2. Answer the interview questions that you are asked.
  3. Nominate 5-11 other blogs with less than 200 followers.
  4. Notify your nominees so that they are able to accept their nomination

You can find more information, including all the rules to win the award, at The Global Aussie.


  • What has been your biggest challenge with blogging?

My biggest challenge has been creating enough content within my posts. Writer’s block loves me!

  • Share your #1 tip for bloggers.

My number one tip would be to write authentically, and from the heart. Be true to yourself, your values, and your motives.

  • What are your hobbies other than blogging?

Art! I love abstract painting. I also read and just recently started bible journaling.

  • What successful entrepreneur do you admire and why?

I would have to say my mother-in-law. She recently bought her own business and I’ve never seen someone care so much and work so hard for something. She truly loves her business and it shows!

  • Who is your favorite blogger and why?

I have a huge crush on A Beautiful Mess! From the crafts, to the courses, to the beauty tutorials, I am obsessed! Their site is gorgeous, they know how to write, they’re extremely creative, super fun, and very professional.

  • Tell us about your blog and why you started blogging.

My blog is mainly focused on living life with anxiety and depression as a 25-year-old Christian female in the south. I started blogging as a way to use my anxiety and depression for good, as well as to help me cope and connect with others who share these issues, all while sharing the love of God and His Word.

  • The item you can’t live without?

Let’s be real. My phone.

  • What and who motivates you to write?

My anxiety, depression, and every-day issues inspire me. My mother is the one who motivated me to start blogging, and my dad encourages me to grow. When I feel as though God is laying something on my heart, I’m also motivated to share it.



  1. What has been your biggest challenge with blogging?
  2. Share your number one tip for other bloggers.
  3. What are your hobbies other than blogging?
  4. What successful entrepreneur do you admire and why?
  5. Who is your favorite blogger and why?
  6. Tell us about your blog and why you started blogging.
  7. What is the item that you just can’t live without?
  8. What and who motivates you to write?

Thank You!

Thank you to everyone who has supported my little blog. Your love and encouragement mean so much to me, and I’m so happy I have the opportunity to reach people about Christ and His love.

Thanks for reading, and thank you SO much for your support,



A couple weeks ago, my church did a series called Different. The first week we talked about being different when we face trials by our faith.

We face trials every day, both big and small. By having depression/anxiety, every day can be it’s own trial. I face the trial of facing people every day, of leaving the house, even. Those are small trials. My bigger trial is that my fiancé and I are currently trying to find our own place to live.

It recently occurred to me that this is an amazing opportunity to test my faith, to hope with expectation, and to be different.

1 Peter 1:6-7(ESV)

In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

We are blessed in the waiting and during difficult times. While those who don’t know Christ see waiting periods and trials as inconvenient, we see them as opportunities to grow our faith. By waiting for God to bless us with a home, I can go to Him in prayer, I can read about hope and waiting in Scripture, I can tell others about His promises and how my faith is currently being tested in an amazing way.  And when God gives us our place, they’ll see that He is faithful.

Life is full of waiting, hoping, and trials. We all hope for things and face hard times. But what is it about expectant hope that makes us different? What is it about welcoming and embracing trials that makes us stand out?

Expecting whatever it is you’re hoping for is saying to God, “Thank you for providing this for me,” before you even have it. It’s confirming that you are trusting Him to provide for you. While we can already rejoice in what we don’t have yet, others are doing the opposite, which, unfortunately, is more common. Embracing the trials with hopeful expectation makes us different because the world rejects and avoids these inevitable times that are necessary for our growth.

But what if God says no? What if His timing isn’t your timing? What if whatever trial you’re facing seems to never end? In my opinion, the “no’s” come in when you didn’t get the house you wanted, but you’re still blessed with even having the option. God says no when He has something better planned for us. He makes us wait so we can grow and prepare for whatever it is He is bringing us. We face trials so we can be blessed. Even if those hard times get answered in a way you don’t want, God always has your very best interest in mind, and He has a plan for you. A perfect plan, at that.


You can always trust that He will provide. You can test Him, and test Him, and test Him again, and He will prove His faith over, and over, and over. Sometimes His answers aren’t as obvious as others. Sometimes they’re small and simple, just enough to get you by. Others can be obvious, if you know how to see them. By seeing the small things, such as simply waking up, you are different. By rejoicing in hard times, in trials, you are different.

James 1:2-4 (ESV)

Testing of Your Faith

Count it all joy, my brothers,[a] when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

This world has done an incredible job at twisting reality into something so negative. But God sheds light on the good. When you read His Word and grow closer to Him, you learn how to see through His eyes and not the world’s. This is another way He transforms lives, by changing perspectives. By making you different.

So how does all this pertain to anxiety?

Advice Tip #22: The more trials you face with your anxiety and/or depression, the closer to God you will become. When life brings a trial, being your anxiety or depression, or whatever you may have, it is a door opening. An invitation to run to God and seek His love. An invitation to experience something different.

I had a small anxiety “moment,” as I call them, earlier, where I needed to lie down and pray a small and simple prayer. That small moment was a huge blessing. Without that moment, I wouldn’t have thought to pray at the time. It gave me a divine opportunity to feel His presence, and to feel His peace wash over me. A divine moment that was disguised as something scary brought me closer to Him. I embraced that small trial differently than the way the world has taught us, and He proved Himself. He is always here for us, no matter what. He will always be there to intervene, and you should hope for that expectantly.

Stay hopeful. Be glad for trials. Accept them, face them, and seek Him. Be different.

Thanks for reading,


Dealing with Depression

A week before my 12th birthday, I lost my grandmother, whom I adored. Although we knew her time was soon, it was still unexpected, as she went to bed one night and simply didn’t wake up.

I remember it vividly, my mom telling me what happened. My breath was instantly gone, and I was filled with the heaviest pain I’ve ever felt.

Death was very new to me. Even though we had been preparing, nothing had prepared me for the grief that filled me. That grief made itself at home. I grieved for months, breaking down at the thought of her. Time went on, years passed, and I was still sad. It never left. It teamed up with anxiety, instead.

I sought God on and off throughout middle school, but by the time I was in high school I was truly stuck in this state of sadness, and God was completely out of the picture. I sought all of my worth and happiness through another person which only hurt me more. It seemed like each day brought something new to keep me down. I felt alone, unwanted, unloved, and unnoticed. I just felt lost, and had no idea who I was supposed to be. I became nothing more than a shell. There are chunks of memories from those 4 years that my mind has blocked, completely, because I was so out of it and hurting.

Depression is very serious. It’s dark, it’s lonely, and it’s scary. I’ve made many dumb decisions in attempt to escape it. I opened every door but the one I knew was right.

But God waited for me. Right there, when I was in the darkest state of my life, completely giving up and no longer caring, He quietly reminded me He was there, that He loves me, and that it was time to wake up.



Psalm 34:17-20 (ESV)

17 When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
    and delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
    and saves the crushed in spirit.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
    but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
20 He keeps all his bones;
    not one of them is broken.


God hears us. He knows and feels our pain, and delivers us from it. He takes it away. It may not be instant, it may take work. But that work will help Him shape you into who He wants you to be, which is nothing less than the best version of yourself. When you let go, He takes hold, and transforms your life moment by moment, through good times and bad.

He is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. He was with me when my mom broke the news. In that room, He was there, hurting with us. He knows exactly what I went through. And even though it was a dark and confusing time for me, He surrounded me with loved ones who also hurt with me. He surrounded me with love, with family, and with good memories to reflect on.

I still struggle with depression, and I honestly think I always will. But now it has a purpose. Now, like anxiety, I see it as a reminder of His love and grace. I no longer see it as this annoying pain that I just want to go away, but as part of who I am, and as part of my story. He made me like this for a reason. And even though I’ve felt pain that I thought was unbearable, He got me through it. I wouldn’t know Him today like I do without depression being a part of my life.

Advice Tip #21: There’s nothing to be ashamed of for having depression. There are 350 million other people who feel what we feel. That’s 350 million people we already have something in common with. That’s 350 million people we instantly connect with. Three hundred and fifty million people are hurting just like us. Who need God, just like us.

When you hurt, His arms are around you. When you’re anxious, depressed, or both, He is there. And when you call on Him, He’ll take your pain away, one moment at a time. Breathe. Give your pain to Him. Let Him take control. When you call out to Him, and feel His warmth and love, you’ll never be the same. You will become a shining example of His grace, mercy, and love.

Next time you feel yourself slipping, remember that His arms are around you, and that He is using that pain for something greater than what’s bringing you down. He’s using that pain for your better good, and for His glory. Don’t beat yourself up for having depression, but instead, praise God for it. For it is yet another divine gift.

Thanks for reading,




Anxiety vs. Money

When it comes to money, I do everything I can to avoid thinking about my bank account. Even when I know I’m good, I still brace myself every time I buy something. I have anxiety about spending, saving, and I’m always filled with guilt, no matter what I buy. As I’ve been reflecting on my spending choices, I’ve realized that my relationship with God isn’t reflecting on my finances. No wonder I have financial anxiety.


1 Timothy 6:17

As for the rich in this present age, charge them not to be haughty, nor to set their hopes on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly provides us with everything to enjoy.

 A lot of my anxiety also comes from not relying enough on God to provide for me. Money is untrustworthy, and just as temporary as we are. Only He can be fully trusted to provide all of our needs for our entire lives. If we rely too much on money, we will fall. It does not last like God does.

I’ve been struggling in this area to let go and let Him provide for me. My biggest weakness is food. Even though He has provided more than enough food at home, I still manage to talk myself into swinging by Taco Bell for a 99 cent burrito. Most of my paycheck is spent on eating, and that’s a problem considering everything that’s already been provided for me. I need to learn to see His blessings.

Sometimes that means leftovers. Sometimes it means hand-me-downs. Whatever it is, if it’s provided for me, I need to recognize and take it, not turn around and spend the money He’s given me on stuff He’s already provided. It’s literally a gift from God. That goes for everything, not just food. It takes a lot of self-discipline, but it also allows me to lean on God and become more aware of what He provides.

That’s the beauty of it. Suddenly you begin to realize just how blessed you are, even with the simple things.

Advice Tip #20: If you experience financial anxiety, I suggest changing your perspective and try to view your finances through God’s eyes. What do you spend money on that pleases and displeases Him? What are your financial strengths and weaknesses? In what areas do you need to let go and lean more on Him? Adjust your habits to what is pleasing to God. Tithe, save, and budget so you can be used to bless someone.


Tithing is such an important act of faith. God, Himself, asks you to test Him with your finances. When you change your perspective and see your tithe as a way of worshipping and showing your faith in Him, it becomes a completely different experience. Rather than having to worry about tithing too much, you can be joyful in knowing that He provides. And the more you experience it, the more your faith will grow.

When we visited our church for the first time, we were stunned when the pastor explained that if there was anyone in need of food, shelter, or clothing, that they may take whatever cash is in the offering bucket, because once it’s in the bucket, it’s no longer ours, but God’s. That’s what really made us stay. We knew we could trust that our financial offering was being used how God says it should be used, and that this church has their priorities in order. Whatever isn’t taken out of the bucket is then used to help build more campuses, reaching more lives; it funds the free resources our church provides to hundreds of churches around the world; it provides support when needed, and is always used in ways that glorify God. And at the end of the day, that’s all that truly matters. We also have what we call the Tithe Challenge, where you challenge yourself to tithe weekly for 3 months, and if you’re not blessed by the end of those 3 months, you get every penny back. But I promise you, you will be blessed, and it will greatly impact your views of money and faith.

Don’t let your finances replace God in your life. Don’t let it become an idol, replacing your need for our true Provider. Remember that money is only temporary, and God is everlasting. Budget, spend wisely, and give. It’s more than worth it.

Thanks for reading,


The Anxious Christian (Book Review)

This book, written by Rhett Smith, has an amazing outlook. The main focus is learning to see anxiety as something that can help you, and strengthen your relationship with God. It talks about embracing anxiety and making the most of it in every aspect of your life.

I absolutely love the positivity that engulfs this book. Smith does such an amazing job of showing you the good in our anxiety, and how it can contribute to our faith. Each chapter ends with discussion questions, an exercise, and a prayer. The discussion questions really make you dig deep and guide you to seeing anxiety in a whole, new, and helpful light.

Throughout the chapters, you’ll find yourself dissecting your anxiety and threading it through your relationship with Christ, making you realize your anxiety’s purpose.

“Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.” SOREN KIERKEGAARD, The Concept of Anxiety

One of my favorite chapters in this book talks about reimagining anxiety, and how, “God does not leave you alone in your anxiety, but uses it to awaken you and help you turn toward Him.” God uses anxiety to reshape us into being who He intended us to be. When we neglect our anxiety, it kills the dreams and passions that God has given us. We have to face it in order to grow. This book helps you do just that.


It also discusses the difference between healthy  and unhealthy anxiety, helping you better understand where your head is at. It discusses anxiety in relationships and even marriages, and how to differentiate yourself from others in order to ultimately come together and share our unique gifts with one another as the one body of Christ, giving you an incredible example of the Trinity.

The questions in this book really challenge and and encourage you to describe your anxieties in different situations and seasons of your life. Chapter 8 really helped bring some things out, and I felt such a weight lifted off of my shoulders.

Some of the chapters take you back and allow you to reflect on your past, opening a lot of closed doors for a lot of people. It did for me, but it was truly helpful. Smith guides you through these memories and the anxieties attached to them and makes use of them by changing your perspective, giving you examples and encouraging quotes and passages from other resources, along with the discussion questions and exercises.

“There cannot be new life without embracing and moving through the pain and suffering, and allowing God to reshape it into something beautiful.”- From Chapter 4: Anxiety Reimagined 

Advice Tip #19: This is one of the exercises from Chapter 4: “Make a list of several anxieties that you are currently facing. As you look at each one, brainstorm and write down possible ways God might be using that anxiety to speak to you/ to compel you to action. No option or idea is off-limits. Let this be a free-flowing exercise.” When I did this, I realized that I really need to learn to trust, which starts in Him.

This book is filled with many great things, and really helped give me more insight on my anxiety. You can purchase the book here or find it at your local bookstore or Lifeway bookstore.

Thanks for reading,



A Blessing in Disguise

What if anxiety is a gift? What if all the worrying and fear is a good thing?

Perspective is key.

“Anxiety reminds us that we are alive, a feeling that is important in keeping us from going numb and withdrawing from the life God desires for us.” – Rhett Smith, from his book The Anxious Christian

This book I’m currently reading talks about this new way of viewing anxiety as something that can, in fact, help us.

Um, what?

Anxiety is important. It keeps us feeling, which is better than not feeling at all. It shows that we are still present, even though it hurts. I know for me, withdrawal is a huge product of my depression and anxiety. I tend to shut down when I’m depressed, hiding under the covers and feeling nothing but pain, shutting me out and letting me fade into the background.

That is not what God wants.

Our anxiety needs to be a reminder: 1.) That we’re alive, we are breathing, and boy are we feeling, and 2.) to remind us to reshape ourselves into who God wants us to be. Easier said than done.

“God does not leave you alone in your anxiety, but uses it to awaken you and help turn you toward Him.” -The Anxious Christian

One of my biggest struggles lately is following through with my daily anxiety goals, which makes me feel as though my morning prayers are empty promises to God. I always ask for Him to give me a servant’s heart and courage to face the day and to not let the day-to-day shadow His presence. But it’s as though I forget as soon as I open my eyes. My mind goes back to the same ole depressed and anxious habits of worrying, fighting, and flighting. My words don’t stick.

So what can I do to make my anxiety a blessing? What can I do reshape myself and change these negative habits into positive responses? What will help my prayers stick?

Advice Tip #18: Embrace it.


“If there’s anyone who can appear before Aslan without their knees knocking, they’re either braver than most or just silly.” -C.S. Lewis from The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe

Our anxiety can inspire us to chase after God, to continually seek Him and His presence, to pray. Our anxiety just might be our golden ticket.

I’ve been trying to embrace my anxiety for years. Like I said, it’s so much easier said than done. But thinking back, I’ve realized just how much it’s contributed to my faith and walk with Him. It brings me to prayer, to His Word, and I now know a sign from Him when I feel one. Well, sometimes (I’m a blonde).

Anxiety is a huge blessing, if you let it be. It’s God’s way of calling you. It is a holy reminder that God knows us, that He hears us, that He loves us, that He is there for us to lean on. It doesn’t have to be a burden.

Embrace this unique gift, and let Him use it to its fullest potential.

2 Corinthians 12:10 (ESV)

10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Thanks for reading,







God of the Universe

Confession: I was a New Age believer.

For almost a year I kept a journal of gratitude towards the universe. Not God. The universe. Not the Creator of the universe. Just the creation, itself. I was worshipping a creation. Can we talk about how lost I was? Space cadet, over here.

I was obsessed with an artist who preaches New Age through his music and was so consumed by it and by the thought of this inner power that he was so passionate about.

‘The Secret’ is the new(ish) thing, and people are eating it up. It seems to make so much sense, but joke’s on us.

What is New Age? Here’s what Google told me:

New Age 

noun 1. a broad movement characterized by alternative approaches to traditional Western culture, with an interest in spirituality, mysticism, holism, and environmentalism.

“the New Age movement” 

Alternative approaches. Trying to find the meaning of life through everything but the meaning, Himself. How foolish.

You throw your gratitude in the air and answers fall back down like rain. But the glory isn’t to God. Essentially, this belief is saying you are God. You have all the control with your own thoughts. You made it all happen. The focus and praise has been completely redirected from God and turned onto ourselves. It’s completely taking away God’s credit and claiming it as our own. Well played, Satan.

It couldn’t be any more twisted. Yes, we do have the power to control our thoughts, and maybe certain outcomes. Yes, positive thinking does produce positive results and vice versa. But God provides and is in control of everything. Not the universe we only live in. God provides us with both positive and negative results and the strength and grace to endure both. When I asked the universe for stuff, that was just it. I only asked for stuff. I never tried to manifest strength, itself. I never asked for humbleness or humility or relief from my anxiety. I tried to manifest wealth and recognition (and got neither, by the way).

I’ve realized that where I am right now in life is humbling and I’ll even say somewhat humiliating. But in a good way. In a needed way. A way that the universe can’t provide. But the Creator of it can.


The main difference? The universe doesn’t live in you. But the one who made it, and every single possible thing, does. That’s ten times more incredible than manifesting a blue apple (an actual telling of the Secret- I can’t make this stuff up.).

This is Steven Bancarz, an ex-New Age believer, now Christian. His testimony is amazing, and provides a great explanation for New Age believing: From New Age To Jesus

Advice Tip #17: I respect anyone’s belief, as I’d want anyone to respect mine, but I’m here to tell you that there’s so much more to it than the universe. It keeps going. It’s far more powerful and real than our positive thinking, than our physical being. The universe can’t change people like God can. It can’t heal you. It can only deceive you.


1 Corinthians 8:6(ESV)

yet for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist.


Thanks for reading,



How to Live in Fear (Book Review)

“Why me, Lord?”

This is the question Pastor Lance Hahn asked as he battled a forty-day panic attack. He’s suffered from panic disorder since the age of six. His story is admiringly relatable, and he is incredibly empathetic. He can’t express enough how much he understands and how he has been there. And boy, has he been there.

“The worst evils of life are those which do not exist except in our imagination. If we had no troubles but real troubles, we should not have a tenth part of our present sorrows.” -Charles Spurgeon, theologian (from Chapter 3: My Darkest Hour)

Anxiety is hard to peg. Why do we feel like this? Why can’t we be normal like everyone else? Why me? This book covers all of your questions.

My spirits were lifted from beginning to end. From the author’s true understanding of anxiety, to the advice, to the stories of healing, and to the constant reminders of God’s grace; this book is saturated in greatness.

What I really love about this book is how Pastor Lance digs into the root causes of our anxiety and triggers, and how to combat them. He gives you a step-by-step guide to pinpointing your fears and how to seek God to help you overcome them. Another thing I loved was his constant reminders of God’s love and empathy towards us, as He, too, suffered on earth. Jesus suffered from great anxiety the night before his crucifixion. He knows exactly how we feel and hurts with us.

We serve a God who knows our pain. Who lets us feel these things for the better good and at times gives tough love through our suffering. But it’s always for our own good, and there’s always a reason. This really helped me understand and somewhat accept my anxiety. God can use it. God can use little ‘ole scared me.


That’s liberating! Our weakness can be used in incredible ways!

Pastor Lance does a great job in giving you the first steps towards understanding why you have anxiety. My favorite part was at the end, where he gives you 3 reminders:

God loves and cares for you.

He doesn’t take pleasure in our pain. In fact, He has a plan for it.

God is in charge.

We can rest easy knowing He is in full control over every single thing in this universe. He will never lead you to something that won’t benefit you. Everything He brings your way, good and bad, is to benefit you. He doesn’t want you to hurt, but to grow. He knows exactly what He’s doing, and everything is going to be okay.

God will never abandon you.

He is always beside us, ready for us to speak to him about our hurt. When you have no one or nothing left, you’ll still have Him. When you can’t talk to anyone, you have Him. When no one is understanding your pain, He will. Because He knows and loves and cares for you.

Advice Tip #15: You are not alone. You are loved. You are heard. You are cared for. You are unique. Having anxiety is a daily fight, but we have a God who loves us, who is in charge of everything, including the circumstances we’re afraid of, and who will never leave us. He created us this way for a reason. He has a plan, and we need to stop, rewind, and breathe because He has our best interest in mind, and will always use us and our anxiety for good.

How to Live in Fear teaches you just that. By the time you’re done reading this book you will be a total freak-out master.

Thanks for reading,






The Calling

“What if?”

My favorite phrase. The phrase that holds me back. The phrase that makes me choke.

Turns out, Moses liked that phrase, too (Exodus 4). I think he and I would’ve been friends, judging from this chapter. God told Moses his plans of using him, and he was plagued by the what-if. He feared no one would listen to or believe him that God chose him. He gave every excuse he had not to go to Egypt. He argued with and begged God to choose someone else. But God chose Moses for a reason. In fact, Moses was chosen not only to go to Egypt, but to be an example for people like me, thousands of years later.

Regardless of his crippling fears, he obeyed. And God used him, alright.

Fear rules my mind so much so that it’s extremely difficult for me to decipher which voice is God’s. One of my biggest goals is to learn how to hear God’s voice not only when I’m at my lowest, but every day so I can enter further into my calling. If only I could get rid of that obnoxious “what if.”

God gave Moses all the proof he needed, and then some. When Moses asked why him to do the job, due to his poor speech, God told him not to worry. That He will provide the words. No matter how many things held Moses back, God wiped them away. Moses had to trust him. Even though he was terrified and confused, he had faith.


I think my anxiety plays a big part in not being able to hear God’s voice. I fear I’ll be chosen like Moses. I fear God’s plans for me. I fear the unknown. The what if. What if I’m not hearing God but Satan? What if this is a trick? What if I’m flat-out crazy?

Whatever it is God has chosen me for, I pray for strength. I pray that I hear Him clearly, and am strong enough to follow Him.

Advice Tip #14: If it’s not something that glorifies God, it is not from God. How do you know what glorifies God? Read His Word. It has all the answers, and that’s where He directly speaks to you. The more you read, the more you’ll recognize His voice, therefore hearing His calling for you more clearly. Even Moses had anxiety. But even Moses overcame it.

Exodus 4(ESV)

Moses Given Powerful Signs

Then Moses answered, “But behold, they will not believe me or listen to my voice, for they will say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you.’” The Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?” He said, “A staff.” And he said, “Throw it on the ground.” So he threw it on the ground, and it became a serpent, and Moses ran from it. But the Lord said to Moses, “Put out your hand and catch it by the tail”—so he put out his hand and caught it, and it became a staff in his hand— “that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has appeared to you.” Again, the Lord said to him, “Put your hand inside your cloak.”[a] And he put his hand inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, his hand was leprous[b] like snow. Then God said, “Put your hand back inside your cloak.” So he put his hand back inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, it was restored like the rest of his flesh. “If they will not believe you,” God said, “or listen to the first sign, they may believe the latter sign. If they will not believe even these two signs or listen to your voice, you shall take some water from the Nile and pour it on the dry ground, and the water that you shall take from the Nile will become blood on the dry ground.”

10 But Moses said to the Lord, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.”11 Then the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” 13 But he said, “Oh, my Lord, please send someone else.” 14 Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, “Is there not Aaron, your brother, the Levite? I know that he can speak well. Behold, he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you, he will be glad in his heart. 15 You shall speak to him and put the words in his mouth, and I will be with your mouth and with his mouth and will teach you both what to do. 16 He shall speak for you to the people, and he shall be your mouth, and you shall be as God to him. 17 And take in your hand this staff, with which you shall do the signs.”

Thanks for reading,