My favorite phrase. The phrase that holds me back. The phrase that makes me choke.
Turns out, Moses liked that phrase, too (Exodus 4). I think he and I would’ve been friends, judging from this chapter. God told Moses his plans of using him, and he was plagued by the what-if. He feared no one would listen to or believe him that God chose him. He gave every excuse he had not to go to Egypt. He argued with and begged God to choose someone else. But God chose Moses for a reason. In fact, Moses was chosen not only to go to Egypt, but to be an example for people like me, thousands of years later.
Regardless of his crippling fears, he obeyed. And God used him, alright.
Fear rules my mind so much so that it’s extremely difficult for me to decipher which voice is God’s. One of my biggest goals is to learn how to hear God’s voice not only when I’m at my lowest, but every day so I can enter further into my calling. If only I could get rid of that obnoxious “what if.”
God gave Moses all the proof he needed, and then some. When Moses asked why him to do the job, due to his poor speech, God told him not to worry. That He will provide the words. No matter how many things held Moses back, God wiped them away. Moses had to trust him. Even though he was terrified and confused, he had faith.
I think my anxiety plays a big part in not being able to hear God’s voice. I fear I’ll be chosen like Moses. I fear God’s plans for me. I fear the unknown. The what if. What if I’m not hearing God but Satan? What if this is a trick? What if I’m flat-out crazy?
Whatever it is God has chosen me for, I pray for strength. I pray that I hear Him clearly, and am strong enough to follow Him.
Advice Tip #15: If it’s not something that glorifies God, it is not from God. How do you know what glorifies God? Read His Word. It has all the answers, and that’s where He directly speaks to you. The more you read, the more you’ll recognize His voice, therefore hearing His calling for you more clearly. Even Moses had anxiety. But even Moses overcame it.
Moses Given Powerful Signs
4 Then Moses answered, “But behold, they will not believe me or listen to my voice, for they will say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you.’” 2 The Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?” He said, “A staff.” 3 And he said, “Throw it on the ground.” So he threw it on the ground, and it became a serpent, and Moses ran from it. 4 But the Lord said to Moses, “Put out your hand and catch it by the tail”—so he put out his hand and caught it, and it became a staff in his hand— 5 “that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has appeared to you.” 6 Again, the Lord said to him, “Put your hand inside your cloak.”[a] And he put his hand inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, his hand was leprous[b] like snow. 7 Then God said, “Put your hand back inside your cloak.” So he put his hand back inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, it was restored like the rest of his flesh. 8 “If they will not believe you,” God said, “or listen to the first sign, they may believe the latter sign. 9 If they will not believe even these two signs or listen to your voice, you shall take some water from the Nile and pour it on the dry ground, and the water that you shall take from the Nile will become blood on the dry ground.”
10 But Moses said to the Lord, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.”11 Then the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” 13 But he said, “Oh, my Lord, please send someone else.” 14 Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, “Is there not Aaron, your brother, the Levite? I know that he can speak well. Behold, he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you, he will be glad in his heart. 15 You shall speak to him and put the words in his mouth, and I will be with your mouth and with his mouth and will teach you both what to do. 16 He shall speak for you to the people, and he shall be your mouth, and you shall be as God to him. 17 And take in your hand this staff, with which you shall do the signs.”
Thanks for reading,